First day of work.
I dont manage to think of you.. THo it's pretty hard atm since Im on the åone with you ;D But anyways.. Im so off thinkin of you n so on.. I feel like a bitch whn I bother you all te time with these stupid things like, whn you dont answere my txts n whn you dont write to me n whn you dont call n whn you're with certain ppl... Im not your gf n you're not my bf so I dont rly have the permission to care ;D Well.. Im off that now.. It jus brings me down n makes me wanna kill myself, so I bet it doesnt have a very gd impression on me ;D
- Jag Älskar Dig <3
What gives you the permission to judge me ?...
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When love holds you down
And pain makes you glad
You're starting to wonder
What really makes you sad
If I fall in love
With one certain guy
He wont love me back
And it'll make me cry
So what I should do
To clear the mist
I should pick up a knife
And cut my wrist..
Solitude * Vacancy <3
If I did...
If I cut my wrist to bleed
What would you do
Would you freak out
Or cut your wrist too...
I'm not talking first.
Sum things can jus drive me mad ! You still got nothin to be mad bout .. You've been able to take jokes b4 ! IM the one who use to get mad ! Jus bcs you never do whn I joke with you -.- So that's no fun... You cant mean you're talkin all that out now, on this silly thing.. I've seriously joked bout more .. I dunno, bad things? OOHH !! Im so off thinkin bout this now, it jus drives me insane !
Can you love some one you totaly hate for the moment ? Well.. In that case, I love you <3
Okey.. new day.... not very givin.. I hate this !! It sucks ! Seriously, I have totaly nothin to do ! I have no friends !! It feels RLLYY bad.. I need to move or sumthin.. change, so that ppl will give me a second change? I dunno.. I jus feel like changin right now.. Everythin jus feels so.. I dunno, wierd? I jus wanna go away n start fresh or sumthin... Own apartment, new school, new neighbourhood, new city, new ppl... new life... Where no1 knows anythin bout me.. A place where I can be me without any1 havin prejudicies bout me from like.. gossip n shit.. It would be great <3
Tiny heart
Stuck inside yourself
When will you open up.....
I jus found out bout a thing.. Marianne called n aye.. I HAVE A JOHOB I HAVE A JOHOB !! XD God Im happy now Xp I'm gon earn sum money ;) It feels nice :) Well aye, hope the happiness lasts :D
Love you all <333 N fucks to Marc, since Im in a gd mood Xp
Solitude * Vacancy <3
Home once again.
N we spent the first.. 2 days, I think, to walk along to shops n stuff... N at Friday we went to this thing called RixFM festival :) RixFM is a radiostation n they've this festival every year :) It's cool.. But it's CROWDED.. damn ! I dont think I've every stood this near a young.. hot.. goodlooking stranger b4 XD I can sure do it again ^^ haha I saw loads of ppl from here... *puke* I could've lived without that, seriously... N I saw E-typ, Anders Johansson, Danny, Emilia, Ola n 2 guys I cant come up with their names.. Might be cuz they're not that importent ^^ Ola n Danny were most important (A) N we'd sum drunk guys talking to us.. *puke* Jus leave me alone, aye?! Stupid fucks.... Well anyway, it was fun :D N I met a alcoholaffected dad.. whom belonged to an certain CK ;) haha He said hello to my dad like they're like best mates, lols ^^
Well aye, I've bought myself a new camera :D It's so.. PINK ;D imba camera.. it rocks, Im so in love with it :D I'll jus put up sum photos ;
haha aye, oks... now you have sum pics... n yeah, jus for the record.. I've never said I was HEALTHY ^^
I think I'm in love...
Jus HATES you atm, that's all...
Well .. pretty much it for now.. :) I dont manage to write anything more now ^^ Gon try to get to sum1.. wanna do sumthin.. Since there's like NO1 online on msn... :/ I wonder what every1's doin... Aye, love you loads <3 Missed you like crazy <3 Fuck to you Marc *rawr* ;)
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Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse
Whoa... I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But god does it feel so good
Cause I got him where I want him right now
And if you could then you know you would
Cause god it just feels so...
It just feels so good
Paramore - Misery Business <33
Solitude * Vacancy <3
Off I go, again.
Well aye, hope you dont miss me all to much ;D I'll be bk soon, I hope ^^ Love you LOADS <333 N fucks to Marc *rawr* ^^
Paramore <3
Story of the year <3
Solitude * Vacancy <3
Hard life?
It's like the girls get more famous the more they get in shape... the more thin n sexy they get, the more famous they get.. the more silicone they put in their body, the more famous they get... Guys jus have to earn alot of money n get well known, n BAM, they're famous... The bigger jewellerys they have, the bigger car they have.. the more famous they get.. The hotter girls they can get, the more famous they get... It's indeed a STUPID world we live in... Seriously, GET REAL !
Jus wanted to get ot out XD
Over n out, Im off beein with BestFriend Andreas now:$
See you folks, love you <33 Fucks to Marc ;) rawr<3
Solitude * Vacanacy <3
Good Life -,^
You're the sweetest ever babe :) I have no idea what I should do without you... We've talked like LOADS the last couple of days n I love it <3 But I dunno what it's with you... it feels like you've lost your will to live or sumthin... like you dont care bout life anymore.. N it feels like you liked me more whn you were 2gether with your gf... But hey, you say you didnt.. Im sry if im such a pain in the arse babe, but I cant help it.. I need to know how you feel n think orelse it'll drive me mad... you have to tell me cuz I cant read your mind n you're way to far away for me to SEE that sumthin's wrong.. But we've talked bout it n you say it's jus a phase.... I jus have to believe you dont I... I love it whn you're so sweet... I dunno, but sumtimes late at night you get very cozy n I jus love talkin n txtin with you thn <3 It rly makes me in a great mood, you always make me in a gd mood babe... Even tho we have had our.. "times" lately, I still like you as I did before.. if not more <3 Im hopin you'll come here soon <3 It's sooo far away the autumn break... :/ Well, I bet I've to deal with it.... I miss you <3 It sucks that mum wont let me go to you, but I'll go to you whn i turn 18 in like 6 months :)
N yeah, you turn 16 2moz, happy birthday in advance <33 It would've been the best if I could come to you on your birthday... :( I RLY TRULY wish I could... It would've been the best... But mum jus hates me, cuz if she didnt she would've let me go ! Cuz she must get how much you mean to me ... I dunno why I cant ! Im almost 18 years old, OMG ! N she've spoken to you.. God jus hates me, thats why.... He wanna torture me n he doesnt let me feel happiness... It's sick that you're 1,5year younger thn me ^o) That feels wierd ^^ Tho I can believe you are, you doesnt feel 15 to me, lols... I havnt thought bout that since now whn I had to think what you turn n yeah.. you turn 16 g.d ;D Well, age doesnt count in that small numers... I dont care <3
Hunny, I never get tired of you.. I dunno why you've started to doubt my love for you ;S you always get cranky whn I dont answere your txts or if our phonecall breaks.. thn you automatic think that I hung up cuz I didnt wanna talk.. Why the fuck would I hang up ?! N I tell you be4 I hang up.. ;K haha. Seriously, we might have to cut down on our messin round thing.. cuz soon we're gon get mad at eachother, haha. But it's fun tryin to make you cranky ^^ haha I cant help it.. but you're so much better thn me on that -.- N I always get cranky at you... But I cant stay cranky at you, you're to cute <3
Här i kungsträdgården finns det pojkar som gör mig så glad
Du är det sexigaste jag har sett på många, många dar
Jag tycker om dig, hoppas du tycker om mig
Och kanske du vill sova över hos mig
Lilla hjärtat, jag tänder så på dig, jag vill så gärna ha sex med dig
Lilla hjärtat, jag tänder så på dig, jag vill så gärna ha sex med dig
Känner mig så osäker när jag är i ditt sällskap
Vad säger man till en person som dig, som på alla sätt är bra
Jag tycker om dig, hoppas du tycker om mig
Och kanske du vill sova över hos mig
Lilla hjärtat, jag tänder så på dig, jag vill så gärna ha sex med dig
Lilla hjärtat, jag tänder så på dig, jag vill så gärna ha sex med dig
I SOO love that song ;D I've fallen in love with it, end of story ^^ <333
Well.. had a blast yesterday with Nils ;D He went away for sum chick whom he didnt wanna meet but she called n bugged him so he went away ;D But thn he came bk, haha. It was rly fun... he went upstairs n went through my closet.... n he went round wearin my sweaters... rly nice XD haha N so he sat in my lap like, a very long time... haha. But at like 1 mum said I'd to go from the comp, so he went to ma bro's room n I went to bed, talkin to Joakim at the phone XD Thn David called me at like 2, but I didnt wanna answere, I jus shut ma phone off (A) xD haha AAANGEEEL <33 Now I've been talkin to Joakim at the phone so mum's startin to get cranky ^^ Well I cant help it that I love his voice (A)
Anyways, I was with Valentina yesterday <3 It was rly great, it was a RLY long time since we hung out <3 We'd like LOADS to talk bout ! XD haha omg, dont think we ever shut up :P Me <3 Girltalk ;D
2daz has been a boring day.... :/ Only gd thing I've done is talkin to Joakim on the phone ;D haha. While he was cleanin his room.. seriously, havnt heared any1 who cleans more fun thn he does XD haha I laughed all the time... <3
Well Im off now, Joakim called again ;D byebyes <3 Colt <3
Love you all, fucks to Marc ;) Rawr <3
Solitude * Vacancy <3
Home Sweet Home <3
Okey... I hate this blog, it sucks arse ! Stupid thing I havnt been able to logg on to it for days ! It've driven me nuts !! N so I've rewritten the blogg THREE times now ! Since there've always been sumthin wrong n so EVERYTHIN has disappeared ! OMG ! I'll stop write this stupid blogg -.- I'll jus go mad ... Grr... Anyways Im home ! Tho I got bk home at Thuseday but havnt been able to write until now.. Since I wrote n it disappeared so I got mad n I ignored it *bitchy face* But anyways, I'll try n write one now n if it disappeared... I'll nevre write again ! I pormise ! stupid fuck...
Well I've been with Sis n Manda, Tony, Danne, Nystedt n Andreas n Pernilla n Anna n Valentina n yeah.. I've been rly busy since I got bk home :D AND I LOVE IT !! Im not used to beein this populaire... hahah
Well Im not writin anymore now :D Im with Nils n we're pissin outself from laughter XD hahaha I dont think I've had this much fun in a LOOONG time XD hahahah omg !!
Well I love you all <33 fucks to you Marc ;)
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Aldrig ska jag ljuga för dig
Aldrig ska jag få dig att gråta
Världen är tillräckligt hård
Jag kommer alltid att förlåta
Du är det bästa jag har
Vad skulle jag göra utan dig
Jag vill alltid ha dig kvar
Stanna föralltid här hos mig
Finns ingen chans i världen
Att jag någonsin lämnar dig
För varför skulle jag ge upp
Det bästa som någonsin kommer hända mig <3
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Solitude * Vacancy <3
Mongolien BBQ <3
HERE'S SUM PICS FROM THE AQUARIA :)
Look how cool !! Serioulsy Im IN LOVE with the frogs :) They're the cutest ever, I'll get one of those ;D
N HERE'S SUM PICS OF THINGS I'VE BOUGHT
(not all of them cuz Im wearin sum n I didnt care to go look for everything ;D)
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1. My badges !! The best ever, tho I have one more I think on the shoulder ribbon, it's a skull ;D
2. My sneakers :) The coolest ever, they're sooo compy too <2
3. MY other sneakers :D They're so cool, n I'll buy a badge to put on both of them so they'll get ever cooler <3
4. Sum jewelleries I' ve bought :) Not all of them tho, couldnt care to find them all ^^
5. (tilt your head to the right) My vest :D
6. Me ;D In my new biatchy glasses ;D <33
You ASS !! Seriously you said, you promised, you would call me yesterday n you DIDNT ! I didnt even hear from you at all, well aye, you sent me a txt like at 12 that said "wohoo, my internet is working:D" or sumthin... ! Well gee thx babe ! You said you would buy this card n call me up ! You shouldnt say sumthin you dont think you can keep ! I hadnt cared if you hadnt said you would call me... If you'd jus say that I'll hear from you.. I hadnt mind. It's jus that you SAID you'd call that makes me furious! You have to stop sayin things that you're not sure you can keep.. But aye, you can do whatever you like.. it's your life so if you dont want me in it, keep up the gd work lyin to me !
Well Im off from the blog now ;D It's sun outside n warm so I cant sit here all day ;D
Love you all <33 Write later whn I have time :)
Solitude * Vacanacy <3
Homesick ?
Okey, I think Im rly startin to get homesick now... I rly feel like Im missin it all, sumthin is missin !!! Im startin to feel outside, not at home.. it jus feels wierd.. N my body constantly hurts... Cant go an entire day without that sumthin hurts ! My legs're all walked out n my knee is all fucked up n I think it's broken ;S Well anyways.. I had the WORST day every 2daz, it sucked sooo much ! It's like everythin we do, we do it Bertilsson's way ! They're whimperin n whimperin n I cant STAND any more ! One wanna go home n antoher wanna go to Gröna Lund n one dont wanna eat there n another dont wanna do anythin at all, bla bla bla ! OMG !! I wanted a sweater n sum suspenders n mebe sum of those buttons with like txts on n shit.. N there's ONE shop in the ENTIRE stockholm that I wanted to go to, but noooo we couldnt go there cuz whn we'd gone to sum shops THEY wanted to go to, they were all exhausted n wanted to GO HOME !! FUCKIN ASS SHIT GAY STUPID FAMILY !!! I WANNA KILL THEM !! AAH !! I jus wanted to go to that shop n buy these things n I'd been pleased ! I'd been walkin all day with this SMILE on my face !! But NO! WHY LET MARLENE BE HAPPY FOR ONCE?!?! I've done everythin, EVERY FUCKIN THING that they'va wanted to do, EVERYTHIN !! With NO complain ! Cant they let me do this ONE thing ?! I jus wanna SCREAM !! GAAAAHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *breathe, breathe*
Anyways, it was pretty cool, I was at the Aquaria :D DAMNIT IT WAS COOL !!! With all these cool, colored fishes :D It was AWESOME ! I'll put sum pics up 2moz since I dont care to look up the cable to the phone atm ^^ haha But you'll see it <3
Well I should get goin now :) Im DEAD TIRED, I'll prolly fall asleep in the chair soon if I dont go to bed :D
I'll put up sum pics at the things I've bought too !! It's so cool :D You jus HAVE to see the shorts I've bought, seriously, drop-dead gorgeous XD hahaha
Well anyways, I love you all, especially my sis <3 Miss you like crazy <3
Solitude * Vacanacy <3
Takes ma life in Slo-mo <3
Im sry I didnt write a blogg yesterday night, but I didnt have time at all ! I came home pretty late n so we ate n I were with Emma n Anna n we went round n I looked at ma darn HOT neighbour ! ;D haha he's emo <3 I LOVE emo guys, they're sooo hot ;D haha I saw like a hundred emo guys yesterday in Stockholm center ! I saw one whom I could've jus ran up to n ask him to marry me XD Seriously... he was that hot... ! Anyways, I have another hot neighbour too XD haha But he's like the pure opposite ! He kinda looks like Ola Svensson, hahah ! But he's darn hot :) Mebe cuz Ola Svensson is hot, but anyways... this guy is hotter ^o) haha okey, have to stop talk bout guys ;D
Well 2daz we're goin tinto town again ! n we'll prolly go to GrönaLund again ! <3 n I'll ride the rollercoaster like a hundred times ! N so we might go to this underground aquaruim ! it's suuuper cool ;D
Joakim called yesterday, he said he wouldnt but he did anyways ;D haha well aye, he said he would go n buy the same phone card as I have 2daz so he could call me cheap. SO he promised he would call me 2daz :) So I sure he do bcs orelse he've lied to me n thn I'll get furious ! Anyways, do as you like :) <3
Solitude * Vacancy <3
GrönaLund <3
Here's sum pictures from the allies in The Old City (sounds rly stupid in english lols)
Haha aye, we stayed for sum meal b4 we went on n there was an old lady who went n ate the food we'd left on our plates ! DISCUSTING ! XD Thn the cheif came out n told her that she'd to leave ;D Thn she went away n started to pick up cigarette-butts XD lols, we laughed quite alot bout that... Anna couldnt believe that the old lady accually DRANK the grounds of her coke ;D
After we'd been there we went on to GrönaLund <3 Im RLY afraid of carousells, I've like ridden 4 carousells in my entire life ;D haha I HATE it ! Or I hatED it... haha. We (the kids, includin me, my bro, Anna, Emma n Anton) got tickets n money n got sent away to "have fun".. the grownups took a beer, or wine, n took a seat at a pub n drank ! We littluns went on n searched for things to do.. So we ended up ridin this "Blue train", lmao ! Stupid thingy, it went RLY slow n so it wasnt even that dark so you could see all the "spooky" things on the walls that was gon pop out (is was gon be like a scary tunnel so..) it was rly like, yeah I dunno.. bad :P Well aye, afterwards we went on n no1 wanted to ride anythin since, I dunno... no1 said anythin ;D Thn Emma n my bro desided to go n ride this The Voice carouselle. It went round on the spot n around the whole thingy, omg. N so the rest of us we jus stood, n walked round waitin for them to get finished .. :P We didnt find any carousells to ride, lols. N whn they finished, they loooved it, we went on n was gon ride the biggest, blue :P, rollercoaster ! But I R E F U S E D ! ;D Thn we desided to go to the Funnyhouse :D I L O V E the Funnyhouse ! it's sooo (shocker!!) funny ! ;D lmao. I love the part best whn you walk on kinda a bridge n the walls spinn round you n it looks like the universe, n it feels like you're goin round ! It's THE coolest <33
After that we went bk to the grownups to look how they had it. N we sat down n took a breath. After 10min of talkin me into ridin the rollercoaster we walked to it ;D But I hesitated whn we got there n refused to go ;D After another 10mins outside it we got EVERY1 (except from dad n Richard since there where off sumwhere else) to ride along with us ;D So they, half, draged me into it n I were off... Think I told every1 I was gon die like a million times, haha. What, i seriously THOUGHT I would die, hahah. Well..... I'll thank them all my life for makin me cuz DAMN it was the must fun thing ever !! I went on n we rode the new rollercoaster jus me, Emma n Anna and DAMN that was shitloads of fun as well !! :D But thn I got out of tickets :'( Darn, but mum n Annika said we was goin bk 2moz n thn we would get RIDERIBBON ! It's this ribbon you buy n thn you can ride EVERY attraction for free :D IMBA ! Im gon ride the third rollercoaster n I promised Emma to ride the Looooovetunnel with her ;) hahahah It's prolly fun ;D
After that we went out the park n took the ferry over to "land" n took the subway to the center of the town where we went to Pizza Hut <3 There we had to stand n wait (imagine you that after an entire day of walkin n runnin round) for like 15min to get a seat ! Well whn we'd got our seats I ordered a pizza with chicken n extra cheese ;) YUMMIE !! They have like the best pizza EVER there ! Tho it takes time to get it.... Whn we were finished we went on n we littluns played "you're in" (or what you say in english..) on the way to the subway (A) Took the subway to Bredäng n now Im lyin here in my bed exhausted ! ;D
And yeah I went into the Spookyhouse too ;D It was DARN neat lols !! I seriously got scared, omg. There was one guy who made me scream, Frankenstein ! (Or Einstein as I said the first time ;D I got myself confused, didnt think of what I said, lols.) The girls behind me screamed so I was gon turn round to see what it was n he stood infront of me, AH ! haha orsele it was darn funny walkin there with every1 all scared up ;D laughed my ass off ! <3
It was a RLY great day n 2moz we're goin to the city to do sum (MORE *sigh*) shoppin ! I so hate shoppin even more now thn b4... Seriously, cant girls have enough of shoppin ?! It drives me nuts! Lucky me that Im not lesbien, damn, wouldnt manage a girl... haha. Yeah, thinkin of lesbien, I saw a "celebrity" in the sub :) Cici from swedish Idol :) Pretty cool :) N yeah I saw a transvestite on Pizza Hut, YEW !! Seriously, so discustin... why cant guys stay guys ?! It looked soo.. yew ! He'd done like all the surgeries n shit.. yew.. seriously, it jus looks.. sick.. haha (A) Erhm.. jus for the record (A) Had to tell you, dunno why, jus had to XD
Now like, my entire body HURTS ! N seriously, I have to look up my knee.. I think there's sumthin seriously wrong with it... Might have broken it... It hurts n I can only bend it like, not as I can bend the other one XD Well anyways... Im startin to get RLY tired n I bet I have to get up early cuz I rly have to shower b4 we go to town... Wohahah and yeah, there's like a TON of hot guys here !! OMG ! Not wierd that it's hotter here thn where I live with all these guys steamin there way through town <333
Okey, better end it here... Nic's alrdy gon kill me for this blog since it's like a mile long (A) Still cant help it babes, love you loads tho.. Miss you like crazy <33
Love you all, I sooo miss Lse so darn much.. Hope Im goin home soon. Dunno if I can take it so much longer... N I rly miss you, since I havnt seen you since the school finished. Well aye, fucks to you Marc-who's-never-online, bastard ;) <3
Solitude * Vacanacy <3
Stockholm, Bredängs camping.
- Hello n welcome to *hmm hmm hmm* camping, what can I help you with?
- Well hello, I have sum wonders bout your campin..
- Well I'll try n help thn !
- First of all, do you have any hot guys here ?
- Well yeah out selection of guys is Pretty big accually ! :D
*click*
Stupid fucks.. I bet they do like that -.- Jus to make sure I'll never find a guy ^^ haha. My luck :P"
Wrote that yesterday... Didnt have that much free time since I were everywhere with Anna n Emma n like.. fooled ourself n had shitloads of fun ;D So I totally forgot the blog for the day ;OO Well anyways, that's all I managed to come up with the little time I took to write sumthin... haha :)
Anyways, a new day ! A.. not that wonderful day tho.. it's clouds everywhere n tho sun's not .. well visible :P Bye it's RLY warm so I dont complain :) Hopefully we'll go to the town 2daz n do sumthin more valuable, haha. Think we're goin to Grönalund, an amusement park, this evenin like.. late :) It'll be great ! Im goin to ride the Ferris wheel :D Wihoo, that's like the only thing I dare to ride ^o) Im a chicken whn it comes to carousells (A) Well... I prefer the lotterybooths :D Im gd at playin away loads of money (A) Or like, drivin the car games in the gamehouses !! <33 Well aye, we'll see how we do ;)
lols, it's pretty fun, since whn you're goin to the toilet you have to press this code to enter the bathrooms n the code is 1106 :P So we've started to use that as a code for goin to the bathroom ^^ Like whn sum1s goin they say, Oh I think I have to 1106 :) N thn every1's like, Ooh is it time for 1106? ;) Pretty silly tho but ^^
Is it better to be with a guy you dont rly love as in "wanna be with" love, thn to be alone? Since the guy you RLY love, doesnt want you or love you back. Cuz you do like this other guy n he cares for you n love you n yeah, you RLY like this guy but... well he just isnt the other guy. He has that special thing n well, seein him with another girl would drive you mad. But what is better, to be alone n watsh this guy find a girl n jus hate the world... Or to try an relationship with this other guy jus so you'll forget the guy you truly love? This guy doesnt want you, there's nothing you can do so you should try n go on with your life as he does with his. He doesnt care bout you n you're startin to mean nothing at ALL to this guy so why should you stay? The other guy loves you n he would prolly do like anythin for you, what makes you hesitate? What makes you hesitate the obviously ? What does this guy have that makes you wanna stay n never give up the fight? He do you no gd n yet you dont wanna give it up. Sumtimes I wonder if I've ever had any sence at all... Have I ever made a gd decision? And will I ever be able to get rid of ancient feelings or will I forever live as I always have...?
Solitude * Vacancy <3
Stockholm tomorrow then.
You can get an daily upgrate of photos ;D
Well aye, this is pretty much what I've done ;D
I ate at Max, mmmm.. it was so gd :) saw a rly discustin dude.. He had pretty long hair, a hairribbon in his hair.. n he was pierced in one ear.. n he jus looked.. gay XD hahahah awkward dude.. anyways.. thn we drove home n on the way I saw this sign "Laggar". Haha. Darn funny place to live at.. Bet it laggs alot there... Ö: lmao.. Anyways.. thn I got home, took sum stupid photos at myself as usual.. haha, n so I went inside n ate icecream n strawberries <3 Thn I tried n shoot with that gun on the pick :D It was shit loads of fun !! <33
Well now I better go out n be a little bit social with the "ppl" ;D haha. See you all 2moz mebe, if I'll not have to much to do in Sthlm.. :) Well love y'all n fucks to Marc ;D <333
Solitude * Vacancy <3
Fort ruins.
Well aye, I'll prolly get away from the comp b4 mum'll get more fucked up on me thn she only have.. Stupid bitch. She gets cranky jus bcs I sit by the comp... N thn my bro comes with this FUCKED UP stupid idea, Mum you know what I think ?... 2moz we'll put away the comp so that NO1 can sit ... WTF ?!?! ARE YOU TOTALLY ÌNSANE !? motherfucker ! Jus bcs you dont have anythin to do by the comp ! Jus bcs you dont have any friends who missed you n wanna chat with you n so on... STUPID FUCK ! I sooo wanna kill that fucker !!
Well Im off now.... Now dad n his bro's startin to sing XD hahahah that NEVER happens, lols !! hahah
Well okey, im off now... I love you forever n ever stupid fucks XD Miss you all like CRAZY n I sOOOO wanna go home <333
Solitude * Vacancy <3
New day. New thoughts.
Not very givin photos but hey, he's only 4 years old XD haha Among the pics it's my bro, he's pants, my mum, Henriks foot, my leg, Henrik's father n my father.. n yeah sum cryons (? sumthin tells me it's called that.. dunno why..) n a keyhole n a window n a chair n the computer n the lawn n yeah.. loads of shit XD
Well aye, in a much better mood 2daz I must say ;D haha well sumtimes it jus requires sum sleep whn Im down :P It's jus the day thats bad, I jus need to sleep in away ;D
Anyways, now Henrik's gon go out n drive his quad, hahah. Fuckin genius, haha. He's so cool omg... Except from whn he sits in my lap n pick his nose... erhm.. anyways, kids ;D
2daz it's NiceNice weather n the sun's shinin n it's this nice cold breeze singin once in a while, rly lovely :) Hopefully we'll do sumthin else 2daz thn jus sit in the sun.. orelse I'll get rly bored.. I'll us sit here all day n dad'll get furious n shit.. But what, I've been lyin in the sun a while.. it's to hot. N I have no friends here, since every1's over 30 or under 4... so wtf am I suppose to do?! I can sit n make phonecalls all day, but gee, how fun would that be whn I've sad everythin to every1 n Im broke... -.-
I'll sit here n eat chips n get fater... omg, im pathetic XD well anyways.. nvm, I'll jus live my pathetic life as it is n die whnever I feel like it, haha. (A)
Well now I've nothin to write bout.. there's like NO1 online on msn so I have nothin to do n Im s FUCKIN bored there's no word for it.. Well aye, now my bro, Henrik n his dad :) Hopefully sumthin more fun'll happened :P Prolly not but hey, wishin is free XD
Well aye, Im off from the comp for nows :D See you laters :)
Txt me Sis so I know that you're alive ;D Love you all <333 N fucks to you Marc cuz your never online stupid ! :P
Solitude * Vacancy <3
Manage the aroundworld.
Now our love's floating out the window
Our love's floating out the back door
Our love's floating up in the sky, in heaven
Where it began, back in God's hands
Everything's shit, and I bet it cant get any worse. It cant get darker at night, n the air cant get much harder to breath. I cant think that life's more useless to live and I cant believe in less then I do.
Solitude * Vacancy <3
I will just stop thinking about love.
I hate love, it sucks sooo much. I can never make up my mind bout what I feel or what I think bout anythin. . . But I've jus laid n thought bout it all n I came up with sumthin. . . (from my oppinion bout GUYS.)
Whn you love love sum1 you cant stop think bout him n you jus wanna be with him n everythin he does makes you glad, n everytime you see him, he makes you in a gd mood whatever have happened to yah in the past. Whn you're with sum other guys or see a hot guy sumwhere you jus think bout this guy.N this is the guy whom you compare with other guys whn you see them, you think like, oh no that guy doesnt have his smile, that guy doesnt have his eyes, that guy doesnt shine like he do n so on.... N you cant STAND seein, knowin that he's with another girl thn you. N the smallest thought bout him havin a girlfriend who's not you, it drives you CRAZY! You jus feel that whatever this guy does, you can forgive him. Everybody have their own faults n you're willin to forgive this guy for his faults cuz you know that it's better thn livin your life without him.
Love sum1 as a friend. Whn you love sum1 as a friend you jus feel that this person you can share everythin with n that he makes you glad n you jus trust this guy all out ! You can do friendly things n you can joke bout eachother n jus have fun n no1 takes it fully out. Whn sumthin happens, this is the first person you think bout n you want him to know everythin bout him bcs you feel that keepin sumthin from him feels wrong. You dont care if he'll meet a another girl n fall inlove bcs you know that he'll stay with you n still share everythin with you bcs you're so gd friends. He's not the person you think bout whn you're hangin with guys n you feel that he jus wants the best for you. You care bout this guy n you love him but not quite as much that you wanna be with him... But you might think that from time to time since this is the guy that rly care for you n wth, he knows everythin bout you n you can talk bout everythin... But you dont rly know...
What Im tryin to get to is that. . . I dont think I love LOVE Joakim. . I think he fits better in the friend love profile. . Since he's not the first guy I think bout whn I see a hot guy n I dont care if he finds another girl only that he's happy... There's another guy that fits that profile perfectly, every word n every letter.... I've tried to deny it ever since you turned me down, but who'm I foolin? I jus.... I cant stop thinkin bout it. It drivs me mad, free me !
Solitude * Vacancy <3
Rönnby.
Okey :) Were in Sundsvall yesterday :) O H M Y G O D !! There was like a HUNDRED of gd lookin guys there. . I almost died ! They were everywhere ! On the campin, in the city. . everywhere.
N yeah, I had the most drop-dead GORGEOUS guy as a neighbour whn we camped in Ö-vik ;D Didnt have that much time thn so I forgot everything I was suppose to write bout like, you know, drop-dead gorgeous guys n other IMPORTENT shit Ö: hahaha Well aye, I've seen ALOT of smokin hot guys, omg. . I so have to move more south whn I finish school, haha. Well that might not be a so gd idea after all, I'll prolly die from like, overheat bcs of all the hot guys ;D hahaha If yah can do that, lols. Well anyways it was rly fun n so :) Too bad tho I didnt have time to go n see Rasmus :( It would've been fun to see yah, but hey, I cant do everything at the same time :/ N it was an family vacation so I wasnt suppose to see yah after all, but it'd been fun :)
It wasnt that gd weather in Ö-vik whn we was there. . . it kinda jus rained n shit but got a little better from time to time :) N thn whn we drove to Sundsvall it got alot better :) We'd sun n we jus walked along in every shop n like, stared, haha. It was a shitty mal, it sucked. . Was like borin shops n things n I didnt rly feel like buyin anythin bcs I felt rly fat that day, dont rly know why I jus did. . . Well I bought a t-shirt anyways :)
Well aye, we were suppose to sleep in our trailer on the IKEA parkin in Sundsvall but dad changed the plans so we continued drivin till we got to Tönnebro n so we stayed there over the night ;) It's like an truck parkin to it was RLY noisy at night but I slept DAMN gd ;D N yeah, dads daily joke, hahaha. We store our water in sum box in the frontseat to keep it cool, n so my bro reashed his hand to the front n say, I want sum water ! N so we jus passed this bridge n dad jus, it's in the river. . . haha omg :P Stupid. But the joke is a little better in swedish since there's a card game that's called like, it's in the river, so :D haha anyways ;D
Well aye, slept well this night n so we got up early to continue our journey towards Rönnby, where Im now, n so we left our trailer there n went to Gränby n did sum more shoppin n I bought a brown sweater, darn neat it was :) haha We went round alot n so we went bk to Rönnby :) Thn whn we arrived, my cousin, Henrik, was drivin his little quad, like tiny little ;D Bcs he's like 4 years old ! N he drove this thing round like a maniac ! ;D He's like the coolest kid EVER ! XD N he jus came n parked it on the lawn n he came up to us n took of his crosshelmet n he stood there in his outfit with his blonde hair all messed up xD omg, he's so DARN cute :D N so they have a bigger quad so I'll prolly drive sum later on :D
I dunno what to say, I dunno what to think. So I've desided that I wont say anything or think so much bout you babe ;D I dont get it how you think, it jus feels like you dont rly know what you want n so on . . but hey, it's your like n yah can do whatever you want with it :) If you wanna spend your life with me, gd for both of us, I love you so ofc I wanna spend my life with you :) But if you wanna spend your life with your ex, fine with me, what makes you happy, makes me happy :) Im jus glad I got to know you babes <3 Well aye, as I said I'll call you later on so we can talk sum more :)
Jag Älskar Dig <3
Even if I see one or a hundred of hot guys, I love Joakim the most in the entire world and I wouldnt wanna share my life with anyone else but him.
Allright, what shall I write bout now... I shouldnt write anything more now, have alrdy overwritten what Nic think's a long blog enough XD haha Sry babe but I cant help it, everything jus COMEs to me whn I sit here n write ;D Well aye, who've said you HAVE to read them anyways ;) You can jus dont. . . :P No1 will kill you for that, lols. . . I love you even if you dont read them :D
Aah, I can put up sum pictuers :D Jus a sec. . .
Hahaha ;D Think I've had a little to much free time ;D
If yah wonder why I've taken a pic of MHS, it's bcs my initials' M.H n so is my dads n my bros, so we call ourself for the M.Hs ^^ *bad humor*
1. My new braclet :)
2. My favorite candy :)
3. Me and my brother ridin this FUCKSHIT fun thingy :)
4. Me eatin pommes frites <3
5. Aaaaand... me :D haha
Well aye, that's it. . . Have to go now, my dad dont like me sittin here all afternoon ;D haha So I'll jus be off for now n I'll prolly be on laters. . . or not ;D We'll jus see, haha. Well I love you all <33
Solitude * Vacancy <3
Ö-vik camping.
OMG, how'll I be able to write an entire blog in less thn 30mins ! It usually takes me like hours n hours ! haha well aye, have to make the best of it. . haha, it'll not be as gd as always but whatever. . . ;D
Im in lack of words n things to write. . . It's prolly bcs of the times pressure. . . hmm hmm hmmm. . . .
NIC FFS YOU MUST LOGG IN NOW !! I only have like 15min left n well aye, I'll not be able to talk to yah in sum time :P Well aye, I can txt yah but hey. .yah dont have any money on your phone so yah cant write bk. . oh gee, how fun is that on a scale !! :D
Hopefully I'll be on more later on or mebe 2moz :) I wont be able to answere all of the things I have to answere n I wont be able to write as long blog as usual n as MANy as usual ;d it sucks. . .:P I'll dieee of computer longing, if yah can do that lols ;D Well if yah cant I'll be the first one lmao ;D
Im dyin from stress. . . haha I'll die from to much blod in ma vains bcs my heart is so stressed it'll pump out to much blood n ma vains'll expolde ;D I'll invent plenty ways of dyin, sittin here ;D haha We must get internet on our portable computer so I can sit as much as I want so I dont need to stress myself to death ;D
I better get this blog finished now ! It's like5mins left, hahah . Well aye, love yah all n i'll write whn I get time :D
Fucks to yah Marc ;)
Jag Älskar Dig <3
Solitude * Vacancy <3
